Absolute madness has been going on in my life, folks. Sheer and absolute madness. The good kind, though. The kind that fills you up with a frantic frenetic energy that makes waking up at 5am totally worth it. I started working for Nasty Gal. They actually contacted ME and asked me to interview, so now I have a pretty sweet gig with probably the raddest company known to girlkind.
I'm also going to be featured on their blog pretty soon. Be on the look out for that, please, and when you notice how clean and pretty my house looks, be aware that I had a mini breakdown the night before while I was frantically cleaning the kitchen. (Somehow breakdowns always happen in the kitchen, don't they?)
I was wiping the counters and putting the dishes away when I just became overwhelmed by the possibility that things were NOT going to look the way I had wanted them to and I would be so disappointed and mad at myself for not doing all the things I wanted to do earlier-- I was freaking the fuck out.
I started crying a little at first, then I thought, 'Fuck it. Nobody else is in the kitchen. I'm all alone right now, so, I'm going to cry as much as I want to!' and I just let it out. Hard.
While I was crying, I felt extremely angry, and secretly, I wanted my boyfriend to walk into the kitchen and notice and be concerned and feel bad and guilty (though he was already helping out as much as he could!). But then, all of a sudden, I noticed I wasn't crying anymore, I was just doing what I needed to do, that episode passed so smoothly that I hardly noticed that I had stopped. My mood was calm and peaceful. The kind police officer of my mind had come and made way for the little ducklings and everything was totally happy and fine again. Everything was doable and manageable, and even if it was not perfect, who cares. I, magically, didn't anymore. It was weird, guys. But also awesome. Honor whatever feelings you're having, and eventually they will pass. Then you go back to your normal, happy medium. Hopefully, happy is your medium.
Anyways, this look was shot by my dear and amazing friend Timony Siobhan. Check out her Tumblr, too!
Congrats! Are u going to be writing? I agree. Let the tears or whatever flow. I stress pretty bad, ever since I was a little girl.
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DUDE that's so awesome about Nasty Gal. I'm permanently in love with them. Aaaand your shorts are utter fabulous-ness.
ReplyDeletecongrats on the Nasty Gal job!! sounds dreamy!
ReplyDeleteit's alright to break down every once in a while
as long as you keep moving once the break down is over.
I can see how you stressed out... totally happens :)
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oh nikki, you are so gorgeous it's hard to look at you...love the outfit, and congrats on the nastygal feature, you looked amazing and your house is to die for!!!!
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ReplyDeleteHi you looks gorgeous! would i ask you how tall are you? cause you look tall and i like your style, but i'm not sure because i'm tiny :(
ReplyDeleteyay! how exciting! the feature looks so great! i love nastygal and you seem like a perfect fit. your house looks immaculate and gorgeous, if that is any consolation to your breakdown.
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you're so gorgeous and i love the shorts and the jc looks perfect on you!!! xx
ReplyDelete"The kind police officer of my mind had come and made way for the little ducklings and everything was totally happy and fine again."
ReplyDeleteHahahaha I love you. Thank you so much for shooting with us last night!!!!
"when you notice how clean and pretty my house looks, be aware that I had a mini breakdown the night before while I was frantically cleaning the kitchen. (Somehow breakdowns always happen in the kitchen, don't they?)"
ReplyDeleteHA! I love you for saying this. Thank you.
Absolutely love this post! And it makes me happier as well :)
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I love your style so much! You look gorgeous!
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